What is Ego and why does everyone seems to suggest that it is bad? The word means 'I' in some language, so if it just denotes the self of one, why is it bad? These questions have many overtones that require a comprehensive analysis without expecting an answer. Even in this post, I
am neither giving an answer nor elaborating the problem, but just
wanted to get this thing out of me, at least partly. I have encountered two instances in the last two days which made me think about this issue. The two instances are the Narcissistic syndrome and the Telugu movie Mr. Perfect.
I have always been of the opinion that I am unique and look at this world with myself at the center. The words "I, my, me, mine, myself" occur in almost every aspect of my description of the world, which I call "My world". A piece of news heard, the thought occurs - "How does this affect me or my family"? "My team must win, irrespective of the opposition and performance". "I can do anything, all I need is the will" and so on... Sometimes, I feel that I am acting in a hypocritical way. Sometimes I make statements and prolong arguments just like that. Most of all, I feel that I am different, from everyone. It isn't just that, I think anyone can do anything and no one is lesser than the other. It is just the choices people make that define them. I even feel that a person can make a choice to die or not to when someone is trying to kill him. On a whole, I feel that the world is individuals and their choices. So in "My world", I am the Subject.
How are these related to the above two instances? Hard to pin point the issue. It is that, when I am going through the article about Narcissistic Syndrome and when I was watching the movie, a part of me brought to the fore some of my actions earlier in life. I could see the striking similarity and could not stop worrying if something's wrong with me. In fact, there are a couple of lines in the movie which I have uttered to some person. I could not stop matching the events of my life with that of the protagonist's, though not in the entirely same lines of the story. As with the protagonist, I feel that "My world" is different and every one have their worlds which should not be changed for someone else. Adjustment is something I do not like to do or suggest. The most important thing in my life is myself. I was adamant that people can live without adjusting in their lives. Somehow, as the movie progressed, I felt something's wrong with this attitude (so did the protagonist). I cannot say I found the solution from the movie, but at least I found a probable defect in this attitude.
I came upon the Narcissus syndrome while wikiing about The Big Bang Theory- Sheldon Cooper. When I was in the campus, I always thought myself to be a mini-Sheldon. Somehow his attitude and his importance on structure seemed related to mine. The best example I could give is this: A friend of mine was once sad and in the conversation over sms, sent me a message saying "Listen to me a movement". Seeing that the first thought I had and the reply I sent was "It is moment not movement". And the tone of the conversation changed immediately and it was ended quickly. Thinking of that now, I feel bad that the person got hurt but am still unable to control my tendency to search for such issues with people and try to correct them. There are a couple of other instances, which on reflection, say that I might have acted in an improper way, suggesting that, "I am right and You are wrong".
May be I am wrong or may be I am thinking too much. But I am unable to figure out the problem completely. In any case, I could neither fulfill the purpose of this post due to lack of proper words nor succeed in wasting time in these less-work office days.
I have always been of the opinion that I am unique and look at this world with myself at the center. The words "I, my, me, mine, myself" occur in almost every aspect of my description of the world, which I call "My world". A piece of news heard, the thought occurs - "How does this affect me or my family"? "My team must win, irrespective of the opposition and performance". "I can do anything, all I need is the will" and so on... Sometimes, I feel that I am acting in a hypocritical way. Sometimes I make statements and prolong arguments just like that. Most of all, I feel that I am different, from everyone. It isn't just that, I think anyone can do anything and no one is lesser than the other. It is just the choices people make that define them. I even feel that a person can make a choice to die or not to when someone is trying to kill him. On a whole, I feel that the world is individuals and their choices. So in "My world", I am the Subject.
How are these related to the above two instances? Hard to pin point the issue. It is that, when I am going through the article about Narcissistic Syndrome and when I was watching the movie, a part of me brought to the fore some of my actions earlier in life. I could see the striking similarity and could not stop worrying if something's wrong with me. In fact, there are a couple of lines in the movie which I have uttered to some person. I could not stop matching the events of my life with that of the protagonist's, though not in the entirely same lines of the story. As with the protagonist, I feel that "My world" is different and every one have their worlds which should not be changed for someone else. Adjustment is something I do not like to do or suggest. The most important thing in my life is myself. I was adamant that people can live without adjusting in their lives. Somehow, as the movie progressed, I felt something's wrong with this attitude (so did the protagonist). I cannot say I found the solution from the movie, but at least I found a probable defect in this attitude.
I came upon the Narcissus syndrome while wikiing about The Big Bang Theory- Sheldon Cooper. When I was in the campus, I always thought myself to be a mini-Sheldon. Somehow his attitude and his importance on structure seemed related to mine. The best example I could give is this: A friend of mine was once sad and in the conversation over sms, sent me a message saying "Listen to me a movement". Seeing that the first thought I had and the reply I sent was "It is moment not movement". And the tone of the conversation changed immediately and it was ended quickly. Thinking of that now, I feel bad that the person got hurt but am still unable to control my tendency to search for such issues with people and try to correct them. There are a couple of other instances, which on reflection, say that I might have acted in an improper way, suggesting that, "I am right and You are wrong".
May be I am wrong or may be I am thinking too much. But I am unable to figure out the problem completely. In any case, I could neither fulfill the purpose of this post due to lack of proper words nor succeed in wasting time in these less-work office days.
